(I'm still spazzing over my waifu so lemme use this pic)

Hey, my first rant here in my blog! This post is actually inspired by my friend who has friendship and relationship issues and had a suckish life. HAD. But she still keeps on posting bitter statuses all about the like. I was reading them like "wow, you seriously are wasting a part of your life by giving a fuck on things which are not worth bringing up because they are all in the past now".

I get that you lived in angst before but that was before. Don't be stupid to make them your "now" again. You know that you should've been wise enough to think twice on that. Why the hell bother on stuff that are completely unnecessary now? It's like you're still living in that part of your life when you should instead wake up and face the reality that it's all over.

I also had the same experience, except that I didn't give a rat's anus at all after. I had a miserable life back in elementary. Well, there were times when it wasn't going downhill but most of the time it was. I went through the usual. I got bullied, ostracized, secluded, etc. They laughed at me because I was different; I laughed at them because they were all the same. I wonder why I was a target for bullying. I was still unlucky to encounter that fate. Jealousy always lingered whenever I saw those students that everybody seemed to adore so much. Even students who were shy like me didn't even try to be open and popular yet they were still liked. I hated myself for being so different from everyone else. I had friends but they weren't really "real". That lasted for about six years until graduation came. At the ceremony, I honestly didn't feel any sadness at all. "Great! Time to leave all this bullshit behind," I said. I saw my batchmates crying and hugging while I was just with my family, not giving a single shit. I know I lived in bitterness, but I'm glad that's over with. I think it's because of my bitterness that I've forgotten a lot of things that happened back in elementary. Well, doesn't matter now.

High school came and it was a rough start. It was my first time being with people who were way different. It was also my first time studying in a school that is not in the city so I was startled by the change then suddenly went all berserk because I couldn't stand them at first. "Great! I'm different again. So much for restarting my life." Then I realized that I was the one ostracizing myself, but not for this whole time, at least. Luckily, they were open-minded enough and were willing to still accept me. I was relieved, got used to them and soon loved them. My smile widened so much as I got to experience true happiness with friends. My high school life had a lot of ups and downs and those downs were really upsetting. Fortunately, we were mature enough to settle things properly which resulted to a happy ending.

However, in the midst of my first year in high school, I suddenly heard these rumors about me from my elementary classmates and apparently became popular. I was like "why the hell are you involving me in your shenanigans when I'm not even with you guys anymore?! I didn't give a fuck at all and this is what I get?! Bullshit. I've moved on so you should, too."

University life has been doing really great. I seriously became an extrovert. Well, not completely, but still I became louder and more open with people. Maybe it's because I had the sudden urge to make a change again. Still, I'm proud of myself for making these changes. I'm happy.

Pardon me for all the swearing. Basically, the point is, how happy you will be is much greater than how sad you are now. Misery won't last forever because it doesn't and will never matter. You'll soon get to the good life. I know in my heart that at least a few people would accept you. The rest who wouldn't won't matter as long as there are a few. Don't keep telling yourself that you are so imperfect. I know that someone would be fascinated by your imperfections. Be blessed that your sadness won't last for long. Embrace your present life and it will soon embrace you back.